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2004-02-21 - 8.06pm previous entry next entry Hello!!!! Yay, it's my birthday, it's my birthday!!! I love birthdays!! :) I am 28. Yikes. I am as old as my mummy was when she had me. That is weird. So she is twice my age exactly now. Weird. I am having a very quiet birthday. I woke around 7am and the room was all dark still because of the shutters being closed, but I could see chinks of light through them. I like that about French houses. A wood pigeon sat right outside the window and starting saying, "Happy Birth-day to.... Happy Birth-day to..." He kept forgetting the "you" but never mind! ;) I went back to sleep after that and slept another couple of hours. I didn't go to bed till 1am so I needed to. I came downstairs in my favourite pyjamas and Granny's sofffft fleece dressing gown (which she leaves at my parents' house for when she stays here), and I had toast and marmite, and then a pain au chocolat for breakfast, yum yum!! And then M & D brought presents and cards to the table, and I opened them. It was sooo nice. Neil got me this lovely jumper and some choccy biscuits and little heart-shaped chocolates, and slippers!!! I got some yummy French sweeties and the BBC version of Pride and Prejudice from my parents. I LOVE that version. Mummy has it, and I haven't seen it for ages now she's moved to France! I find it a really good one to just sit in front of for as many of the five hours (!!) as necessary when I get my period :) So yay, I have that in my collection now! :) Granny and Grandoug phoned to say Happy Birthday, and I got cards from my family and Neil. After breakfast I spent an hour or so doing a jigsaw that me and Mummy started working on yesterday. I like jigsaws. Then after that I was sleepy so I went up and took a nap for a while. Neil came to wake me later on and stayed and chatted with me while I woke up. Then I got dressed in my favourite clothes and when I came downstairs there was a big roaring fire, which we've sat in front of for a couple of hours now, and then I came to check online to see birthday wishes and write my diary, etc :) So yeah, a very quiet birthday. But that's nice, I like it. It has rained this morning, and been really cloudy and cold the rest of the day, but that's okay when we have a big fire and it's cosy inside. Tonight we are having roast dinner (lamb) which I love, and after that we are either playing a board game or watching some of M & D's collection of Fawlty Towers or Blackadder on the little TV upstairs, something funny that will have us rolling around laughing. This is just the kind of birthday I was hoping for. I am getting quieter in my old age!! Hehe! No, really, I was always pretty quiet. 10 years ago I was turning 18, and I didn't have a party then either. I spent my birthday at home with my family, because that's what I wanted, and it was just perfect. 20 years ago (gosh!), I was turning 8, and I had a party. I had a white party dress with pale blue ribbon round the waist, and I had the same ribbon to tie in my hair and lace my white tap shoes (taps sadly removed earlier due to much noisy stamping around that drove the whole family crazy!!). I was soooooo excited about my birthday party. I watched from the upstairs window for ages, waiting breathlessly for the first guest to arrive. I wish I could remember more about it, but it probably involved pass the parcel and various other party games, and ice-cream and jelly, and a cake with candles, and stuff that is really traditional but that I never ever got tired of. Sometimes I really miss those type of parties. But I am looking forward to living it all over again (albeit from a different perspective!!) when I have children of my own. The sweetest cat in the world is right here next to me. I won an auction on eBay today, that was nice for my birthday! :) Baby clothes. Even more fun! :) And that is about all really. I am so glad to be here with my parents and Neil, because without any of them I would be lonely on my birthday. Birthdays just aren't the same without my parents and without Neil. The one time I had a birthday without my parents I cried all day and was thoroughly miserable, and I do miss them such a lot, so I'm glad I am here with them now. My birthday wish today is not for me to get pregnant. Infact if I had to give something important up to make my birthday wish come true it would be having a baby. I just so desperately want Katia and Abby to live and survive cancer. That's my birthday wish. I don't know if Abby is still alive today, but I can't bear to check her site today. I will check tomorrow. If it was bad news then I couldn't enjoy the evening that my family are working so hard to prepare for me. Maybe God will bless me with a baby now that I'm finally being slightly selfless? But isn't that being UN-selfless, thinking that?! Hmmm. Oh well. I trust God over it all anyway. Birthdays are days when you take stock of your life, and I am just so utterly beyond-words grateful to have Jesus in my life and in my heart. I am grateful for my precious family and my wonderful husband, and my little baby cat. I am thankful for my health and my future that I look forward to with happy excitement. I am grateful for far too many things to list here, especially since Daddy just came in and said dinner will be just a few more minutes. But yeah, I am happy with my life on my birthday, baby or no baby. I want a baby. But I trust God and I'm just so glad that I have him. Thank you for the lovely birthday wishes in my guestbook. I love my friends too! |
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