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2004-02-05 - 12.12pm previous entry next entry Thanks Emma for the lovely guestbook entry! :) Feeling less blah today!! Yay!! :) See, I told you I'd come back and write something more cheerful soon! Yesterday I basically played the Sims and felt poo about myself. Then I did 3 things that made me feel better. I did some exercise!! Yeeaaah!! I was sitting there worrying about what on earth I could do to get myself fitter, because I couldn't think of anything I wanted to do out of the house. I knew I would not stick at anything that cost money to do, but other than a walk, I couldn't think of anything else I could do. Trust me, in this area, a walk is not that exciting. Roads with smelly traffic. Woohoo. In the end I remembered what one of my many books on pregnancy said (can't remember which one) - ANY exercise is good, so long as it's the equivalent of 3 times a week for 30 minutes or something like that - anything, so long as it exerts you. The book said even washing a car or vigorous gardening, if it exerts your body! So I used the stairs. I walked up and down them - not running like I once tried! But walking. I walked and walked and walked. I kept a steady pace and BOY was I out of breath after just a few ups and downs! After 10 I did some stretches to get my breath a bit, and then I did 10 more and so on. I climbed and descended for 5 minutes without stopping (that was my goal), which turned out to be 30 times. Phew! And I was sooooo pooped afterwards! But I'm really glad to have exercised my body at last. It is so easy to do that, so I will try it daily if I can, and try to increase the time or number of climbs. At the moment I am too unfit for an aerobics class, which is what I would really LIKE to do, so maybe this will bridge the gap? Anyway that was a boost to my self-esteem! Also yesterday I cleaned the kitchen up. It was getting really messy, so it felt good to make it all clean again. I did loads of washing up. Ah the thrills and spills of being a housewife! ;) Also I drove to fetch Neil from work because that way I was doing something useful on such a wet and windy night, and I was getting out of the house. Plus it was nice for Neil to be picked up instead of sitting on the train and then walking. We went to the supermarket on the way home. I love my husband. I just do. No particular reason, except that he's so lovely. Isn't it funny how I often get all lovey-dovey about him when we go to the supermarket together?! Maybe it's because that's such a romantic "couple" stereotype in my mind, the little husband and wife unit doing something so "married" as the food shopping at the supermarket?! Well it is to me anyway. It makes me all mushy and wistful that I am really married and really grown-up and I really really have this gorgeous and wonderful man as my, MY husband! I sometimes want to laugh aloud for joy when I think of it, just at random times of the day (or night). We are so mushy gooey these days. We cuddle and I never want to let go, even if Neil is half-asleep in bed and I need to let him get some sleep! We say "I love you" allll the time. I get conscious that maybe I say it too much, but Neil doesn't seem to think so and anyway, I only say it when I get overwhelmed with the feeling of it. Which is a lot these days. You know on TV when there's a gooey romantic couple and one of them says, "I love you" and the other one says, "I love you more!" and you instinctively retch? Okay, well, slight exaggeration on the retching, but you know what I mean?!! Well I am ashamed/nauseated/delirious to say that if Neil ever says that (which he sometimes does now), I melt. And if I ever say it to him (which I sometimes do now), it just multiplies the squeezy lovey feeling rather than giving us the reaction that we'd normally have to seeing it in someone else. Ahhh we're so mushy right now! Sorry. You were probably eating. Think of shopping. Or coursework. Or something! There, see? Now you're hungry again! ;) Things are nice with us right now. Oh but Neil's company has turned super naff. A big American company just bought them out last month, and now they are making changes. It was a naff company to work for before, so any change was good. But yikes, they've cut everyone's annual holiday time by a week!! And they have this nightmare person to report to who has just held a meeting warning them not to get on the wrong side of him, and telling them that all the work they do is to prevent HIM from looking bad, so if they do bad work he will make life miserable for them!!!! What?!!!! And they are moving everyone to London Bridge pretty soon, which thoroughly sucks because we live out in the suburbs and Neil currently works out here too. This move will mean commuting in London each day, which is not worth ANY job. I know, I've done it. It is the most depressing thing ever. And exhausting. PLUS they just announced they are not giving out any pay increases for the forseeable future, not unless people work harder and get more results. Well you probably know from yeeears of diary entries here, that Neil works harder than he should, so he's always run down. He gives his all to his work and never gets the credit he deserves. It sounds like his work just turned into a slave-driving environment run by unpleasant people, and I am soooo frustrated/anxious/angry for him that he is stuck in such a sucky job and can't seem to find another one, even after 3 or 4 years of looking (which is why he's doing a masters degree for better opportunities). I hate Neil's work. Hate hate hate. Poor Neil. BUT!!! I bought this book a week or so ago, called "The Power of a Praying Wife" by Stormie Omartian (what a name!), and I started to read it the other day, and it's FANTASTIC. I'm not kidding. It's fantastic. So I know I can pray powerfully into Neil's work situation and really see God change things for him. In fact I'm gonna start on that today. I have only read the first couple of chapters but I like what I'm reading. It's amazing what God can do, and what he's LONGING to do in people's marriages. So that's encouraging. What else? I'm thirsty. And my tumble drier just finished a cycle so I'm going to drink some water and sort another laundry load out. I love laundry. It's definitely my favourite household chore! :) I'm quite boring really, aren't I? |
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