2004-09-24 - Cameron's first anniversary
• MY LIFE STORY
2004-08-16 - Update - 5th Anniversary and other stuff!
2004-06-27 - Church picnic and being happy and things :)
2004-05-18 - Barbeque at Cameron's house...
2004-04-19 - To Tara...
2004-04-15 - Guestbook message response, and a 10-year anniversary
2004-04-14 - Cameron dream, arguments and other bits
2004-04-11 - Easter grumbles....
2004-04-02 - God being faithful again, and visit to the cemetery
2004-03-24 - Cameron's 6 month mark
2004-03-13 - Abby, and miscarriage, and God.
2004-03-05 - Virusy yucky thing
2004-03-02 - An update at last! :)
2004-02-25 - Happy happy pregnant happy :)
2004-02-21 - Birthday birthday birthday girl!!!
2004-02-20 - In France, yay! :)
2004-02-18 - Housegroup and feelings and stuff
2004-02-17 - Valentine's "discussion" (!!) and other bits
2004-02-16 - Lonnnng entry!! Back to church! :)
2004-02-15 - Valentine's Day at Cameron's grave
2004-02-09 - Our date!! And a serious breakthrough :)
2004-02-07 - Going on a date, a date, a date!!
2004-02-05 - The thrills and spills of housewifery!
2004-02-04 - Blah
2004-01-24 - Back from France, and photos!!
2004-01-19 - Another entry from France - relaxation and God and stuff
2004-01-17 - In France again, and Mummy's birthday!
2004-01-15 - General updatey entry
2004-01-11 - New perspective - amazing children with cancer
2004-01-05 - Another entry, following on from the last one...
2004-01-05 - Depressed and possibly going completely crazy
2004-01-04 - Happy New Year. Mmm-hmm....
2003-12-29 - Off to France for New Year!
2003-12-26 - Home from Christmas at the in-laws'
2003-12-21 - LONG - Neil's dad, Cameron (attachment) and other news
2003-12-17 - Percy died :*(
2003-12-16 - Updatey stuff and photos.
2003-12-13 - Percy news, and Michael's birthday party
2003-12-12 - Waiting for Percy news....
2003-12-10 - Bad day, and Percy.
2003-12-10 - Naff entry. Cameron and things.
2003-12-08 - Panto, and the period from another planet
2003-12-05 - Cameron's school presentation
2003-12-04 - Pre-menstrual madness
2003-12-02 - Cameron again, and shopping.
2003-11-29 - My week and other stuff
2003-11-22 - Bits of newsy stuff and slightly morbid rambles (!!)...
2003-11-19 - Housegroup and thoughts and things
2003-11-18 - Phonecall part 2, and church, childhood home, and other stuff
2003-11-16 - Phone call from Cameron's mum (part one, sorry!)
2003-11-15 - Firewall downloading so here I am
2003-11-14 - AOL doing my head in!!!!!!!
2003-11-11 - General newsy updatey things
2003-11-09 - Part 2 of today's entry - not upbeat I'm afraid :(
2003-11-09 - Fireworks and church
2003-11-07 - Cemetery photos
2003-11-05 - Work news and another wave
2003-11-04 - Work again, and difficult day about Cameron
2003-11-03 - Workin' nine till five, what a way to make a livin'....
2003-11-01 - Long entry! Holiday rants and other news...
2003-10-29 - Sewing at last, and cemetery visit and stuff
2003-10-27 - Better day and God.
2003-10-26 - Church, movie, and more of the usual
2003-10-25 - Angry. And sexuality/religious stuff.
2003-10-24 - Doctor, cemetery and emotional wreck :(
2003-10-24 - Appointment with the nurse, and grief
2003-10-24 - The first Cameron dream.
2003-10-23 - Lonely and sad, and a difficult guestbook message...
2003-10-22 - Parsnip stuff and anger and Cameron again
2003-10-21 - Shopping, Pilates and more thoughts about Cam.
2003-10-16 - Cemetery again, and the annoying day of carpet-fitting!
2003-10-14 - Shower is fixed!! And more thoughts....
2003-10-12 - Clearing out the loft. And Cameron stuff again.
2003-10-11 - M & D are in the country!! And other stuff...
2003-10-08 - Visit to the cemetery and not much other news
2003-10-06 - Cameron's funeral
2003-10-05 - Update on Cam's mum, and the funeral is tomorrow
2003-10-03 - Been to see Cameron at the chapel
2003-10-03 - Hard decision
2003-10-03 - New PC
2003-10-01 - Camp leaders' meal, and more of the usual thoughts and stuff...
2003-09-30 - First week of Alpha and the end of Cam's last month
2003-09-29 - Changeable
2003-09-29 - A phone call with Cam's mum
2003-09-28 - Church and youth group and today's feelings
2003-09-27 - Chinks in my armour
2003-09-26 - Cameron's photos
2003-09-25 - Today
2003-09-25 - The Cameron Diaries
2003-09-24 - Cameron.
2003-09-24 - Scared about Cameron :S
2003-09-23 - Fashion rant, Alpha supper, and other stuff
2003-09-21 - Self-image, parsnips (!!) and church with Emily! :)
2003-09-18 - It's been ages!
2003-09-02 - While Neil is away...
2003-08-29 - Charity shopping and loads of other things!
2003-08-26 - Mother-in-law to stay, and more about camp!
2003-08-24 - About camp
2003-08-23 - Back from camp!!!
2003-08-17 - Off to camp!!!
2003-08-14 - Fourth wedding anniversary and a ton of feelings
2003-08-09 - Heatwave again - soooo hot!
2003-08-07 - Heatwave
2003-08-04 - Hot again, work, funny movie and funky church!
2003-08-02 - Baby-making time again....
2003-07-25 - Married life...
2003-07-22 - Long gap and camp preparations
2003-07-10 - Hot weather and having the car! :)
2003-07-07 - Busy week! Grandoug's birthday, etc.
2003-07-01 - Daddy to stay and miracles and things
2003-06-25 - Business idea (!!) and Relate again
2003-06-22 - Big stuff about me and God, and another photo :)
2003-06-18 - The park and stuff, and photos :)
2003-06-13 - The allergy hospital appointment! (long!)
2003-06-11 - Therapy at last, and blahness
2003-06-09 - To the pub (aargh!) and therapy stuff
2003-06-05 - Happy day
2003-06-04 - Just when you thought the ride would never stop....
2003-06-03 - Swings and roundabouts
2003-05-30 - Baby plans and issues, hot weather and gardening :)
2003-05-29 - Church weekend away and a few photos and other stuff!
2003-05-23 - Back from France, and off on the church weekend away (phew!)
2003-05-20 - I know we're meant to be home, but we're STILL in France!!
2003-05-18 - Still in France, and lovely Mummy :)
2003-05-16 - Update from France!
2003-05-14 - New car (at last!) and off to France
2003-05-10 - Christmas plans (in May?!!) and looking at cars
2003-05-08 - Thank you, more feelings, and Cameron nostalgia
2003-05-07 - Big vent of feelings after therapy :(
2003-05-07 - Car peeves and looong walk!!
2003-05-05 - Swimming and sleep and things
2003-05-04 - Feeling better :)
2003-05-03 - Evil IBS :(
2003-04-30 - Rainbow, being anxious, and cake fetish!
2003-04-29 - Feelings about parents being in France
2003-04-27 - An odd week and things....
2003-04-21 - Response to guestbook entry about my rant :S
2106-02-05 - A week of full-time work!! And Easter.
2003-04-13 - I bought new glasses!!!
2003-04-12 - Neil's organising the weekend!
2003-04-11 - Bit better, and the blender at last!
2003-04-10 - Big wuss and housework
2003-04-10 - Updated feelings, and the A-Z survey!
2003-04-09 - Big long extremely personal entry about emotions and today's therapy :(
2003-04-09 - Bits of things and Cynthia Voigt books
2003-04-08 - Blender and random blahness
2003-04-07 - Foot, the news, feelings, and I hate oil.
2003-04-05 - Happy day!
2003-04-02 - Work sucks. And ranty stuff.
2003-04-01 - First day at work in FIVE YEARS!!!
2003-03-28 - Muscles (?!) and seeds and things
2003-03-26 - New modem, argument and work stuff
2003-03-20 - Grief, jobs, modem, war and other bits and pieces (backdated)
2003-03-18 - Photos of Grandmummy, and feelings and stuff
2003-03-17 - Grandmummy's funeral and Mummy's visit
2003-03-10 - Baby stuff and off to the funeral for the week
2003-03-06 - Update and thanks, and first PST session
2003-03-05 - Grandmummy died :(
2003-03-02 - Ministry training day and family issues
2003-02-27 - Parents move at last, and therapy stuff
2003-02-21 - My 27th birthday!!!
2003-02-19 - Update on Neil's job and first Relate session for me
2003-02-18 - Redundancy? And general physical pleasantaries!! ;o)
2003-02-12 - Counselling (at last!) and feelings
2003-02-11 - "Two Weeks Notice" at the cinema! And serious kitchen work!
2003-02-08 - My lovely husband, and further job bleatings
2003-02-06 - Relate stuff begins, and God is good :)
2003-02-01 - Columbia, more snow, and bits and pieces
2003-01-29 - Neil's birthday, dentist, jobs and wheat-free diet
2003-01-24 - Birthday shopping for Neil, and Bennie's job!!
2003-01-23 - Back from France, big issues, no money and stuff
2003-01-19 - France 3 - last entry in France about lots of stuff
2003-01-17 - France 2 - walks, being here, etc
2003-01-16 - France 1 - the journey there
2003-01-13 - Slight hitch on the way to France tonight!
2003-01-12 - UTI, argument that got resolved (!!!) and birthday brother
2003-01-11 - First housegroup meeting and happy stuff
2003-01-10 - Short entry (late!)
2003-01-07 - Snow!! And other stuff....
2003-01-05 - Church, job possibility, and (pre!) pregnancy journal link
2003-01-04 - Walk in the park (and photos!)
2003-01-03 - New year, housegroup, diary, parents' home....
2002-12-31 - Crying. Lots of it.
2002-12-31 - Poem about motherhood (v. weepy!)
2002-12-30 - More Christmas, Neil is home, and 2 photos
2002-12-29 - Shopping again, and diety/dreamsy talk
2002-12-28 - Doing boring housey things, and feelings about me and Neil
2002-12-27 - Sales shopping, digital camera (!), and photo of cute things
2002-12-26 - Christmas and Boxing Day!
2002-12-24 - Christmas Eve. Weepy but fine n stuff.
2002-12-23 - Babysitting and further pre-pregnancy turmoil
2002-12-21 - Theatre, Aishy's baby, and future plans....
2002-12-19 - Dentist, beauty, joy, and parcels!
2002-12-18 - Christmas shopping
2002-12-16 - Changes to my layout
2002-12-16 - Kids' Christmas service and Mrs. Housewife again! :)
2002-12-14 - Feelings on sex, pregnancy and parents moving away
2002-12-12 - Hugely illegal car (!!), marmite diaryring and other stuff
2002-12-12 - Survey of 100 random questions!
2002-12-08 - Freedom in Christ session and a new door open?
2002-12-05 - Still scared. And telling the Youth Group about my healing last Sunday!
2002-12-04 - Ill :( And pretty scared about it too....
2002-11-28 - Frustration over Neil's job, and visiting Vikki!!!
2002-11-27 - Trip to Lewes and our changing church (Family Night)
2002-11-23 - Mrs. Housewife the COOK!! :D And things about fears....
2002-11-19 - Life after M.E, and God's view on my anxiety!
2002-11-17 - 400th entry! Planted the border, more family tree excitement, and photos from New York AT LAST!!!
2002-11-10 - Dentist, fireworks, work on the house and being Mrs. Housewife
2002-11-09 - A visit to Neil's family in North Yorkshire, and the Benny Hinn event
2002-11-01 - Confusion over this weekend's trip and Benny Hinn
2002-10-28 - Mary's healing!! And Marigold's party and other stuff.
2002-10-25 - Busy time! Bennie's graduation and other stuff....
2002-10-21 - More nerves and wobblings....
2002-10-18 - Worries and what to do about nursing/midwifery? Plus two anniversaries and painting!
2002-10-13 - Doors and other exciting DIY stuff (hehe!)
2002-10-09 - Stressy housegroup meeting and more DIY.
2002-10-06 - The Jazz Night!!!
2002-10-06 - Marriage problems....
2002-10-04 - Housegroup, the gym, and other stuff
2002-09-30 - Handing out donuts (!) and a wonderful day!
2002-09-28 - New hair and contact lenses! Also cat-sitting and painting.
2002-09-24 - Much better day - painting and stuff, and a new idea about dating....
2002-09-23 - The issues with Neil and marriage. And other stuff.
2002-09-20 - Last few days in New York, and back home again
2002:13:09 - Another entry from New York - September 11th
2002-09-12 - More from New York - doctors and September 10th....
09:10:2002 - Another entry from New York - health issues :S
2002-09-08 - In New York City!!!!
2002-09-05 - The night before New York!!
2002-09-04 - More preparations for New York, and the meal at Judith's
2002-09-02 - Great excitement about New York! (mad spree)
2002-08-31 - Stuff, weird hormones, and post-camp feelings
2002-08-30 - Deborah's wedding and other stuff that's happened since camp.
2002-08-29 - Camp diary - The last two days
2002-08-21 - Camp diary - More from day three!
2002-08-21 - Camp diary - Day Three
2002-08-20 - Camp Diary - Overnight (first night)
2002-08-19 - Diary written at Camp - Day One
2002-08-18 - Preparations for camp!
2002-08-08 - Praying at Judith's, and general feelings and weirdness.
2002-08-05 - LONG entry about feelings and issues. Also Katy, and friendship.
2002-08-03 - Losing the battle.... but seeing the picture?
2002-07-30 - A serious "feelings" entry.
2002-07-28 - The park (past photos) and hot weather!
2002-07-24 - Psycho-sexual therapy and normal counselling. Yuck.
2002-07-22 - AYME barbeque and other stuff
2002-07-21 - Big tearful time with God (thank goodness he's still there!)
2002-07-18 - Unhappy and struggling :*(
2002-07-15 - Dizzy and scared :S
2002-07-13 - The Flight of Imagination (warning, weird entry! Please feel free to ignore!)
2002-07-13 - Excess energy?!!!
2002-07-10 - Deborah's visit!!!! Also shopping again and heavy counselling :S
2002-07-06 - Can't sleep - a load of feelings, and Grandoug's birthday thingy.
2002-07-04 - "Issues" - yuck. And a visit to see Cameron!! Yay!
2002-06-28 - Daddy, and my own baby.
2002-06-27 - Confiding in Sue. And Benjamin!
2002-06-25 - The Queen's visit, Deborah, and further ambivalence over my issues :S
2002-06-24 - An honest entry about some personal struggles. This is me, warts and all.
2002-06-21 - Active day - so wonderful to be healthy! God is so good to me.
2002-06-20 - Hmmm, this entry wrote itself, amidst an unusual emotional experience!
2002-06-19 - No more mantelpiece!!!!
2002-06-17 - First prayer meeting for the camp!!!
2002-06-15 - Vikki.
2002-06-13 - Finished the drawers!!! Period and something God did for me (again!)
2002-06-10 - The swings (!), and feelings
2002-06-08 - Prayer tent and God speaks about the kids' camp!
2002-06-05 - My day at the Queen's Golden Jubilee celebrations in London!!!
2002-06-03 - Church service and Jubilee Sunday/Monday
2002-06-01 - Jubilee stuff, and talking with Mummy
2002-05-31 - Shopping!!!!!
2002-05-29 - Laying the bathroom floor!! And the football video...
2002-05-26 - Painting (Neil's migraine)
2002-05-25 - Shopping and cat-sitting
2002-05-23 - Eye test, and dot-to-dot with Jesus!
2002-05-21 - The Lord is faithful
2002-05-17 - Gardening and maths (exciting)
2002-05-16 - Memories - Gauffre au Chocolat photo!
2002-05-15 - Jaw Joint and PMT
2002-05-13 - Dietitian and grandparents to America
2002-05-09 - Boring entry on sleep trouble :(
2002-05-08 - Tired. Counselling and fingernails!
2002-05-07 - Tears, Neil, and sleep.
2002-05-06 - I gave my testimony!!!!! :D
2002-05-04 - Dead mouse :( And amazing time with Jesus!
2002-05-02 - Letter to Dorien, talking with Neil, and chicken nuggets (?!)
2002-05-01 - Struggling a lot, but I know it will pass soon
2002-04-30 - A bit of conflict and some challenging issues...
2002-04-29 - Freedom in Christ session - part two!! (and church and praying for the sick)
2002-04-29 - Freedom in Christ session - part one!!
2002-04-26 - I've been ice-skating!!!!!!!
2002-04-25 - Saturday's thingy, and sawing for the cupboard!
2002-04-24 - Counselling, hot, and ice skating (and poll!)
2002-04-22 - Family tree bug and ME meet up at the farm (sharing about Jesus?)
2002-04-20 - Genealogy and growing up with/without Jesus (?)
2002-04-18 - House alarms, chilli, white planks and weird dream (!!)
2002-04-16 - Cat-sitting, counselling and tetanus!
2002-04-08 - Been to London to see the Queen Mother lying in state!!!
2002-04-07 - Church was better, and tomorrow's trip into London
2002-04-05 - More drawers, faithful God, and Queen Mother's state procession
2002-04-03 - Woodwork and gardening!!
2002-04-01 - New poll, cold sore, and feeling troubled....
2002-03-31 - Queen Mother's death, dinner at G & G's and Easter service
2002-03-29 - Nostalgia (and photos)...
2002-03-26 - Parents and God, and Cameron's letter!!
2002-03-24 - God is good!!! (No testimony today though)
2002-03-23 - Desdera crocata and second-opinion doctor
2002-03-22 - Anxious about nothing, and dreams
2002-03-20 - Life crisis? And karate!
2002-03-19 - Millie's baby, Neil is back, and karate?!?!?!
2002-03-17 - Church, autobiography and Millie in labour!!!!!
2002-03-04 - Church, and things are better
2002-03-01 - Poem, and trouble expressing things
2002-02-26 - Counselling and difficulties
2002-02-24 - New poll, IBS and taking off with a door as my wing (?!!!)
2002-02-21 - Birthday number 26!!!
2002-02-20 - Making curtains at Granny's, and new thoughts on periods...
2002-02-16 - Skating, new room, and strange worship (?!)
2002-02-14 - Valentine's Day :o)
2002-02-13 - Counselling and transition...
2002-02-10 - Piano!! (and painting)
2002-02-07 - Weirdness, and what on earth is going on?!!
2002-02-05 - Shopping and housegroup. Feelings too.
2002-02-04 - Attention and selfishness
2002-02-03 - Church again!!! Diet and babies...
2002-02-02 - How awesomely fantabulously wonderfully groovy life is!!! Thank you Jesus.
2002-01-31 - Another week, and how wonderful it is!!!
2002-01-24 - The week, and a massive breakthrough over fear!!!!! :D
2002-01-20 - Been to church!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2002-01-19 - Fear poll, and bits and pieces...
2002-01-18 - Struggling with fear
2002-01-15 - Relief - and counselling.
2002-01-15 - Naff wife? Feeling unhappy :o(
2002-01-14 - DIY disaster, and getting old?....
2002-01-13 - So much to say!
2002-01-08 - A new thing! And a good day :o)
2002-01-07 - Tree, singing, and some difficult feelings about church :o(
2002-01-04 - Feeling... too many things, but liberated! :o)
2002-01-01 - Happy New Year!!!
2001-12-30 - Post-Christmas lull!
2001-12-27 - After Christmas
2001-12-24 - Christmas Eve!
2001-12-22 - An amazing week! Wow - the best word for it!
2001-12-15 - Chaotic weekend, and God's sure power at work!
2001-12-12 - The first housegroup meeting!!!
2001-12-11 - Part two: Struggling with sin
2001-12-11 - Part one: Sick car and other things!
2001-12-10 - Marzpian photos! and other stuff...
2001-12-07 - Difficult guestbook entry....
2001-12-06 - Peace like a... blanket (?!)
2001-12-03 - Heavy entry, need to talk - questions and worries?
2001-12-01 - The AYME Christmas meet-up!
2001-11-30 - Less panic, and decorating the bathroom!
2001-11-28 - About today - fear and panic
2001-11-28 - New profile, central heating, and other stuff
2001-11-26 - Pulled in different directions - temptation and some old feelings
2001-11-23 - Relatives who don't believe, and new poll
2001-11-21 - The loft!
2001-11-19 - Trip to Homebase and being "normal"
2001-11-17 - The big bad wolf and my house!
2001-11-16 - Christmas cakes (plus photos - hehe!)!!!
2001-11-13 - God my healer!!!
2001-11-12 - Struggling a little bit.... (but still healed!)
• JAN - NOV 2001: HOUSEBOUND WITH M.E. (from start of diary up to my healing (yay!)