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2004-01-24 - 9.48 previous entry next entry I'm here at last!!!!!! Sorry it's been sooooo long since my last entry. Well I think it has been 5 days which is long enough. I have made quite a lot of entries in my pre-preg journal in that time though. I always seem to have very little to say here when I am needing to write there all the time. I think that's just how it's going to be. I don't know HOW I'll keep up this diary when I actually get pregnant! I will only want to talk about pregnancy for aaaaaages, I'm sure. But anyway, that's not happening yet, so here I still am! Let's see, what have I done (UN-related to trying to conceive)? I flew home from France on Monday. The journey was fine, no problems at all, and I am getting much more comfortable with flying, doing it more frequently. I loved seeing the sunset about half way between France and England, especially with all those clouds at different heights above and below the sun. It was awesome. The colours were like nothing you see from the ground. I tried to scribble a description down in my puzzle book as I watched it, but it seems so plain now. I haven't done much else that's interesting. I cleaned the bathroom and kitchen. I did tons of laundry. Hmmm, what else? I took the car in for a service yesterday - oh and while I was waiting for it, I went for a little walk which was nice, as the car place is right near the River Thames. I walked down there and sat on a bench to read, but I watched the ducks and swans on the water for a while. When I got up to leave and walked along the bank, suddenly I looked up and there were 2 Canada geese standing right in my path. I was all "There there, nice goosie!" incase it attacked me or something (!!), and I tried not to move much, but they looked like they were ready to stand right where they were and take a nap for the next 2 hours, and I needed to get past them to pick up my car! But it was so nice to be that close to such beautiful creatures. One of them waddled back in to the water and just as I turned to see it swim out onto the river I heard this honk honk sound, and nearly fell out of my skin as I saw a flock of about 30 Canada geese flying right at me only about 10 yards away!!!! But they landed on the water, all in one go. I am amazed I didn't get wet. I really thought I would, but they land soooo gracefully. They all hit the water at the exact same moment, and there was this lovely SHHHHHHHHH sound and the water looked like 30 jet-skiers were just whizzing by, and then it all died down and there they were, 30 or so beautiful birds floating serenely on the water. It doesn't sound that impressive but I just thought it was awesome. I stood and watched them for a while, till the other goose went back in the water, and then I went to pick the car up. Today and yesterday I went shopping in town, mostly to buy Neil's birthday presents, because it's his birthday tomorrow! He will be 30. It feels kind of odd to be married to a man in his 30's. In some ways I think, "Oooh that can't be right for a girl as young as me!!" but then of course I remember that I'm not 15 anymore, so it's about right really. I will be 28 next month. Where's our baby? I was never going to be older than my mum was when she had me (28), in my plans anyway :( One of us is in their 30's already and we are still without children. It makes me sad. But anyway, that aside, Neil is not bothered about "the big three oh" at all. He is sad because his scummy work"mates" forgot he had a birthday, and did nothing to recognise it (I think that is 2 years running now??) even though everyone goes out of their way to mark the birthdays of every other person in the office. I hate his work. It totally sucks in every possible way (except for the pay of course!). Poor Neil. He has a hard enough time there and now he feels completely unvalued on a special occasion. Sucky people. But I'm grumpy and irritable these days so maybe I'm just being ranty. Anyway, tomorrow Neil wants to go to the cinema, but he's not sure if he wants to see something gruesome that I won't want to go near - in which case he'd go on his own - or something we both want to see. The way we do birthdays is, the world is your oyster on your birthday. You choose, no matter how self-centred, for the entire day - food, drink, activities, etc, etc. We've always done that in my family. Neil's family make a really small thing of birthdays, waaaaay too small if you ask me (I think birthdays should be ultra special). So since we've been married (or a year or so before), I've been trying to get Neil into the specialness of birthdays. I think it is working, because my family make a huuuge deal of his birthday, it's not just me, and I think that helps. I have bought him a few presents and wrapped most of them so far, just little things really, since he didn't have many things he really wanted. I want to get him flowers and a cake tomorrow but I am going to have to be sneaky if I'm going to do it without him noticing, since he's home all day tomorrow. Hmmm. This evening we were going to go to the cinema and see "Love Actually" at long last, but quite unexpectedly my IBS went evil and I had a date with the toilet instead. TMI? It was the fault of a hotdog, the likes of which I am NOT eating again, even if I get cravings like the past 2 days! Tsk. Anyway my tummy is feeling much better now. Just achy. But much better :) I can't think what else now. So I think I'll finish, but I have some photos to show you at last!!! Yay! A few from when we were at my parents' house just after Christmas, and one from that walk I took on Sunday with Mummy in France (that I mentioned last entry I think). So here they are: Me at my parents' house, looking at photos of my baby Percy cat :(  Paddy outside in part of the garden. Before I ran for my camera, he was at that low cream wall, standing on his back legs with his front paws on the wall, looking up and down the lane. Mummy says he has been looking for Percy around there a lot, because this part of the garden was where Percy spent his last few days when he was outside. Paddy never used to go there before Percy died. Now he's there a lot, sniffing around, looking over the wall, looking confused. Poor baby.  Here's Paddy again - he just saw me and trotted towards me making lots of little miaow sounds :) I love my Paddy baby.  This is Paddy's favourite game inside. He likes to go behind the curtains and have someone swish an old dressing-gown cord across the floor juuust in front of him. Then he whips out a paw and the dressing-gown cord has had it's chips! It's much cuter than the photo suggests! That's Neil's arm by the way. He loves to play with Paddy.  And this is the photo I took on Sunday, walking with my mummy. There are 2 horses right in the middle of the photo, in a field. They always look at me funny because I say, "Hello horsie!" and they only speak horsey French so they haven't a clue what I'm saying. Probably. Anyway, it was a pretty day. Here's the pic:  It was nice being in France. I loved spending time with my parents, specially Mummy. I left my covers thrown aside when I got out of bed on the last day, and Mummy told me on the phone this week that she found it so hard to strip the bed down, seeing it just as I'd left it like that. She said she had to kiss the pillow before she could do it! Ahhhhh my mummy is the sweetest thing! I love her so much. We had loooooaaaads of hugs and cuddles while I was there, which I miss a lot with her living so far away. She says she misses that a lot too. I can't wait till we go back. Only 3 weeks and 4 days!! :) Well that's it for now. 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